last night

Patty Brown
2 min readDec 31, 2021


i stepped out of my car

into the early night

maggy and atticus

hesitantly followed me there

into the dark and ghostly mist

i could not see the distance

laced with trees

only the shadows i felt

lurking inside of me

i traveled by memory

the gate

the fallen tree

the deep deep leaves

it was quiet

just the occasional

siren blaring

on the closest road to me

off somewhere

past a forest of trees

i thought

i should be afraid

out here in the foggy murk

what if bad things lurk

out in front of me

the fog rising

in this moment

i was to be so contrived

and my most absolute energy

that reeks

with being so so alive

i had to tug on the leash


i felt apprehension

in the odd feeling

of unknown

in this place

i knew so deliberately

so i kept going

and found

an unusual peace

in the quiet mist

a tip toe through

the hope of grace

a trust

that the universe

holds on to me

in a time

when we must guard ourselves

to stay alive

to not even slightly

dare to die

rendering not even

a slow goodbye

the time was old

my footsteps new

traveling in awareness

where apathy

would never ever do

i circled the moon

and walked anew

the one streetlight

a lighthouse

in the blackish blue

i saw my car

by the pasture gate

the dogs perked up

quickened their pace

i took a deep breath

and whispered to myself

i made it here.

and looked up again

i stopped to pray

oh we can not really be

near the end

when my foot path felt

as it’s always been

the beauty

of my fallen yin

tomorrow i start

an empty new year

to change my life

and quiet

all that rumbles restless

in my head

and all the unknown

i’ve come to fear


that i’ve come to love

will never ever

leave me here


a second chance

in rising tides

to ebb and flow

above the fray

above the mess

we humans

have so sadly made

i circled the moon

and walked anew

where apathy

would never ever do

~ patty

photo by jurgen heckle on flickr



Patty Brown

If life steers you into a dead end road, and you are trying to find your way, skip the GPS, take the road with no traffic. Founder studiO, early morning poet.