late at night

i think about what didn’t happen

what dreams were not realized

i calculate the hours

did it all add up

i walk towards the shower

wondering

where did i go wrong

i turn the water on

and rinse off the day

all that did not go my way

i crawl into bed

stare at the ceiling

listen for noises

i calculate the moments

was a single one extraordinary

i decide no

happy in the moment

is as far as it goes

i wait for an epiphany

something that takes my breath away

far from the routine of everyday

i check my phone

lock the screen

sigh

in an hour it will be another day

another chance to fall in awe

i wait patiently

maybe tomorrow will be the day

the day my life will be forever changed

i don’t know why i feel this way

anticipation

about something

i don’t know

haven’t felt

have never even heard

the magic word

and yet believe

the remarkable is yet to be seen

and it’s coming for me

tomorrow is a second chance

for everything

i must manifest my destiny

there is no other way

trust me

it is the only way

to realize dreams

that otherwise

would never

ever

come true

for me or for you

what else in the this world

can we do

— patty

art — all the world’s a stage (2020)

oil painting by van lanigh

If life steers you into a dead end road, and you are trying to find your way, skip the GPS, take the road with no traffic. Founder studiO, early morning poet.